Miss Congeniality

For real too. 

Voted by all my beauty queens. 

I cant wait to write about my weekend but for now I can share my picture and tell you it was a wild ride. One that I will treasure FOREVER 

This Life is one worth living. It always has been. You need to take risks and chances on yourself, embrace challenges and in the face of adversity PICK YOURSELF UP LITERALLY. I had a panic attack but what gave me my control back was when I told myself  out loud "Colleen pick yourself up." 

You have to have faith in something- your gut, destiny- a childhood dream. 

Thank you everyone who has supported me and made me feel like a princess and Miss Universe without the crown. 

I'm beyond humbled and grateful for everything. 

Love Dorothy  

Miss Universe Western Ontario Pageant PT. I

Where do I begin?
My day started off beautifully, I woke up feeling excited and nervous, but ready to go. Knowing I had yet to get my custom made dress fitted I jetted down the 401, as I had to make a quick stop in Oakville. It's never a quick stop, but chiefly because that's when it hit me that my toes and nails were in serious need of a clean up (great day to choose) so I flew down the street to Sunny's Nails and got my toes and nails all did. From there I had a 3 hour and a half drive to Windsor.

I had to be at this restaurant called Mezzo by 5:30. Knowing I wasn't going to make it on time I called my director and he ever so kindly re assured me that I would be fine. It doesn't start till 6:00 and if need be he can put me in the second batch or group of girls to be interviewed, which obviously I would do if I had to, but I arrived literally with 3 seconds to go, all my girls were lined up; my director, Sonny, asked if I needed a breather (I GOT READY IN MY CAR, DRESS AND ALL) AND I SAID NOPE! LETS DO THIS! I work best under pressure anyways...As Chelsea Durocher saw me come flying in and without a hesitation say I'm ready for this, she exclaimed "I love this girl" and took my purse for me. That little line gave me the biggest boost, because I could tell she understands my desire and will to really dedicate myself and take chances.

I have no idea what my lipstick looked like or if it was on my teeth, but I think every chance I had I asked a contestant. BUT THAT DIDN'T MATTER! 12 judges, 5 minutes each, judging how we respond, our character, our posture, how we walk to the next table... I don't know why we were all so nervous, as it was AWESOME! I got to talk about me and reflect on why I am here and what I want to do. I was appreciated by these individuals for my advocating and often thought of as Irish.

Whenever someone asked where I was from, or read Beamsville on my bio, I'd often get "Beamsville? Where the hell is Beamsville?" and naturally I laughed with them, as that was my reaction when I first heard I was moving there. But one gentlemen, without knowing my history background goes "Wasn't there some 1812 war events down there?" AND I SURE LET HIM KNOW! AND THEN I SAID AND WE WON THE WAR! CANADA NOT AMERICA! He responds "sistah! you don't need to tell me I live in Windsor. Fort Windsor?" GOT IT BROTHA!
ANYWAYS,
It went so well
off to practice..to be continued...

That time is now

I've seen this quote before and applied to my life once but here I am again. 

With 4 days left until I'm done my placement, but also compete in the most mentally and physically demanding competition of my life. 

Loves soccer, but this is so brand new.

Our dance theme song is to a jam called don't be so hard on yourself and it's so fitting for this entire process. I'm so grateful this morning, for my sobriety, but more so for my bravery. I get so nervous, naturally, even Beyoncé will tell you she's nervous when she's not nervous; but when you're up there you've got a couple choices: back out and flop- though I've put so much effort into everything about this, my walk, my posture, my poses, MY HEART! But don't be so hard on yourself 

We're gonna do this, no matter the outcome I'm damn proud . 

Why must all good things come to an end?

Have I ever told you how much I love my day job that ends in less than a week (I need to get it out)? I currently work in an elementary school as a Child and Youth care counsellor. 

So I work individually with our youth (and their families) in developing or supporting their mental and emotional health. Learning Exceptionalities, also known as special education, behavioural and emotional issues are also my forte and area of study. 

I'm a college student so this "job" of mine is actually a placement that I've been gratefully honoured ---an opportunity to work at an incredible local school. And I'm not just sucking up, this school is...all I could have ever asked for. The staff are so supportive and kind, it just feels like home. The students, while they're students and have their moments, are a huge, huge reason of why I am smiling so often these days. Without a doubt the MOMENT I touch that schools property they start running towards me yelling my name like I'm a one woman show- one Dorothy instead of one direction- and seeing them accomplish ANYTHING; from one kid apologizing to another kid and seeing them make up instantly and it's SERIOUSLY forgotten, to "helping" them with their math and they have to correct me, making them right and seeing their faces light up. Or when they say things such as "in your day," like I've been on this earth long enough to know what the world was like when we had no electricity. Or colour. 

I love when a kid feels weak and poor about him or herself and I get to be the person who reminds them how untrue that is because EVERY human on this earth has a purpose. You're all so amazing you just can't see it through my lenses, but neither could I was a kid. But that's why I'm there. To keep encouraging, supporting, "teaching" , laughing, smiling, sharing, helping- you name it I'm gonna do it. They deserve that- kindness and compassion. We all deserve that kindness and compassion.

I love you all!

Find someone to hug today or smile at, it'll make their day! 

Xo

Chaotically Beautiful

Last evening was my first ever FASHION SHOW! Naturally I went into the day mentally preparing myself for what was going to happen that evening, but as I reflect on yesterday I've come to recognize-- WHY WAS I SO SCARED?!? What an adventure! I felt so proud of myself EVERY.TIME. I WALKED ON OR OFF! I genuinely felt it. WHAT A FEELING, BEATS BELIEVING!


I mean, I know why. I was about to get up on stage and rather than using my words, I had to use my "looks"; my walk, my smile, my posture, my speed, my eye contact, my excitement! It was a whirlwind of emotions.
When I first got to Windsor and entered the church I cried. I cried like a baby for a solid 5 minutes all a while contemplating "what the heck did I seriously sign myself up for?" but I needed this cry, as I do every cry. WHY? Because in that moment, somewhere, I found the strength to pull myself out of it. I had to let go of the fear and allow the "here it goes!" attitude to flow in.

Earlier I was shaving my legs and cut my achilles tendon and if any girl is reading this they will instantly understand what that means: 30-40 minutes of non stop bleeding. I had just come from work too, so it was not like I had a ton of time in the morning and once my heel was cut, I was hopping around the entire time and using endless amounts of tissue paper, toilet paper, whatever I could find. IT WAS A BIT CHAOTIC, BUT I MADE IT OUT ALIVE! AND GOT TO WINDSOR FOR HAIR AND MAKEUP! AND before I knew it, the show was over. I had answered a question regarding whether I thought it was fair or not for pharmacies to release patient information,  particularly those who have access to narcotics, as is stands, substance abuse is becoming more predominant etc.

I agreed as I remembered one time having to wait in shoppers drug mart for my medications and I was flipping through some pamphlets and I read that 50% of patients do not take their prescribed medications and I was floored. But then I thought "wait a minute, I used to not take my medications because I felt off on them. And now, thanks to my friend consistency, I take them and feel little to no side effects. And trust me, that is HUGE compared to what I used to know and feel. But if 50% of the Canadian population is not taking their narcotic medicine- then where is it going? Oh and substance abuse is going up, similar to suicide rates. So that is why I think it is fair. If I wanted to, absolutely! It would be easy money- 30  bucks a pill. But my values, morals and beliefs are such that I cannot and will not do that. BUT That's just me.... So there was that answer. It was A LOT shorter, which for me is suprising as you can probably tell by my posts.


I had to reflect on some memories, that for the web are intense for me to share, but I am going to do it. It's been so long and safe to say I came, I saw and I conquered a once common, yet endless insecurity: MY BODY. I know I am not the only one and I want to send a message that hopefully, if it is read by any other human on this earth, they will take something away from it.

When it was time for me to gear down and put my bathing suit on I could feel eyes on me. But rather than covering up, I embraced the fact that I was the way I was. I have worked day in and day out at the gym, I'm in the best physical shape possible, and if that isn;t good enough for me WHAT WILL BE? I was not born skinny and remained skinny. I've been active my whole life and had to work for my body. Nevertheless, I haven't been killing myself in the gym. I still eat ice cream and cookies and enjoy my life...As much as I want to be Miss Universe Canada, I don't want to be a false version of myself because then I won't like myself or what i'm doing. This is about being authentically me and in doing so I gotta do whats right FOR ME.

In grade 9 I tried Jenny Craig.
In grade 11 I tried a narcotic drug for two weeks before I got caught.
Grade 12...I let it go.
University-- I used to do that "champagne diet" where you wouldn't eat until you drank later that evening and that would be your calorie intake. DON'T FOLLOW ANY OF WHAT I'M SAYING. DO NOT. It will make you miserable, you'll be hangry and not happy, unproductive, over worrying, likely overeating at some point, and just overall NOT HAPPY. My boyfriends at these times never knew, poor guys. We probably could have saved a lot of arguments if this girl wasn't starving herself to try and look good for you, not that you knew. I just felt SO MUCH PRESSURE. SO MUCH PRESSURE. I still feel it now, but the way I see it I can be who I am and embrace myself like I did last friday and walk that stage proud, or hide. That sounds a lot like isolation and this booty can't be isolated.

I wish that we lived in a world where girls didn't see these Victoria Secret models and think THATS IT! OR #BODYGOALS- NO! ENOUGH WITH THE GOALS OF BODY AND RELATIONSHIP! STICK TO YOUR OWN LIFE AND LIVE IT THE ONLY WAY YOU KNOW HOW AND THAT IS NOT ACCORDING TO THOSE WOMEN. Stop listening to your peers or your parents who tell you negative things, as only you are in control of you how you feel.

I can still feel the fear when I am looking on facebook and all these pictures creep up, but guess what? My makeup was a bit dark as I see from photos so I'm over it. On to the next big show where I get to where my dress from Lucian and round 2. Try it again. BECAUSE IT WAS SO DARN FUN! It was exhilarating walking up there...there's a part of me that has always wanted to do that.
Check that off the bucket list.
After all, I am just trying to enjoy myself and enjoy this process.. and I have some amazing pageant friends.

I'm just gonna put this picture here

GO FUND ME

HELLO AUDIENCE! 

Hi friends, family, current contestants and my pretty cool public peeps,
As you know, it's April, and that means I have less than three weeks until my pageant is here ‪#‎AHH‬ well, round 1. I have till Friday to raise enough money for my participation in MISS UNIVERSE CANADA WESTERN ONTARIO 2016 FINALISTS, which is a total of $1200. This donation, the GoFundMe will go towards all the necessities I need for April 23rd that will hopefully get me to Nationals where I can attempt to compete for the title, of THE Miss Universe Canada 2016. https://www.gofundme.com/5cseuph4

I am currently in placement as a student CYW in an elementary schools and it is unpaid. I am paying for my semester, which makes sense-- it's college. But that does leave this gal tight on "dollar, dollar bill y'all" as my darling mother, Christine Rennie would say.

I'm going to add a tad of what I wrote in my speech in 2015 as an exemplar of who and what I am, but more importantly, what my experience has demonstrated for me and what I hope I can bring to the competition and to the eyes of the judges, audience, observers, staff, management, custodian-- anyone and everyone...

"When I found the guts to move forward with my life in a world that, at the time, seemed completely unfamiliar—to salvage what I could from the wreckage I created to carry on with my life I made a promise to myself: I promised myself I would be steadfast and that I would not live in the past. I would keep my head forward and hold it high, as there is an enormous difference between living in the past and looking at it. It’s ok to look at back, but as someone incredibly wise once told me the past is reference, not residence.
No two people are the same, as it should be. If we didn’t have unique, exceptional, talented thinkers or differences in our character, we would all be stuck in the same box. Can you imagine our world as it stands today without the creation of Apple? Regardless of how you feel about Apple or Jobs, the reality is that it took stepping out of his comfort zone, a socially constructed societal comfort zone, to allow us to have the resources we do. Without courage and thought such as Jobs’ we might not have the technological advancements that we do that allow us to grow, learn, and teach in and develop in different ways.

As you can maybe tell, I love quotes. Quotes, similar to music, speak to me in times when I can honestly say I don’t know how else I am going to ground or balance myself in that moment, which leads me to my last quote by Job’s:

“Bottom line is, I didn’t return to Apple to make a fortune. I’ve been very lucky in my life and already have one. When I was 25, my net worth was $100 million or so. I decided then that I wasn’t going to let it ruin my life. There’s no way you could ever spend it all, and I don’t view wealth as something that validates my intelligence.”

The best journeys answer the questions that in the beginning you don't even think to ask and in this case, I never asked myself what “worth” meant, let alone what I wanted to amount to, but my heart and intuition knew and still knows that it is to serve a greater purpose. It is not about the influx of wealth, but rather the influx of difference. And once again, unlike graduating year classmates, the only way I could do this was by diverting from the norm—Get a 4 year undergrad degree at Laurier and decide you want to get a Ontario college diploma in Child and Youth Care!

But I absolutely love my college experience and I think that is largely because I have finally found my forte, my niche, and my passion. I no longer have thoughts of “what if” and that too feels quite wonderful.

Because now I KNOW I have a core set of talent, skills and abilities that makes me excited and want to get up every single day knowing I have no idea what to expect, but something good will surely come from it—so long as I make an effort to learn. And I try. I cannot stop trying no matter how off path I may feel. Unless I get lost of course, I will turn around at that point.
Here I want to ask, why is everyone so worried about being normal? We should celebrate uniqueness and the talents that individuals with exceptionalities can do, because it is absolutely extraordinary. And from personal experience, if used in the right direction there is no telling where you may end up!
Learning disabilities of Canada redefined the meaning of learning disabilities in 2002 to include new elements including that learning disabilities are neurobiological, genetic, lifelong and do not just affect the area of education, but affect all areas of life:

"Learning Disabilities refers to a number of disorders which may affect the acquisition , organization, retention, understanding or use of verbal or nonverbal information. These disorders affect learning in individuals who otherwise demonstrate at least average abilities essential for thinking and/or reasoning. As such, learning disabilities are distinct from global intellectual deficiency.”

If we want to help others we must be heard, but we must also be seen. In order to achieve my goals I’m not only learning to speak up, but to speak out. We need to recognize and fully acknowledge that a disability is not an inability, rather a unique set of talents, that if guided in a nurturing and supportive environment youth and adults may not be afraid of being wrong, or making mistakes; for every mistake we have an accessed to opportunity to grow and discover.
Be brave enough to trust your heart, intuition, gut, or at the very least your journey, as it challenges you to exercise both your heart and your mind as you create your own path towards happiness. Speak up knowing that your words help reset our intentions, clarify our thoughts, and create a counter narrative to the voice of doubt many of us have murmuring in our heads.

But also be sensitive to it in your own life. Listen for your call to adventure. Accept the challenge. Conquer your fear and claim the treasure you seek. And most importantly, listen to your gut and intuition- it somehow already knows where you want to be, everything else is secondary."

GO FUND ME PLEASE: https://www.gofundme.com/5cseuph4

Our friend, Laughter! YES!

"I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person."

- Audrey Hepburn

So how do we play? By saying YES to more things and doing things that allow our brain to seek those happy and joyful chemicals and build those "never going to forget memories," no matter how big or small. I'm not saying you have to jump on a plane, but switch it up. Read your book in a different room-- it might make you enjoy it more (Parischa, The Happiness Equation) ITS SCIENCE that isn't the kind we can't understand. Funny and laughter are subjective to one's perspective, but let's not be mean and hurt people's feelings. That's just never cool!

DID YOU KNOW THAT LAUGHTER HAS THIS MANY HEALTH BENEFITS?

Stress relief from laughter

A good sense of humor can't cure all ailments, but data are mounting about the positive things laughter can do.

Short-term benefitsA good laugh has great short-term effects. When you start to laugh, it doesn't just lighten your load mentally, it actually induces physical changes in your body. Laughter can:

• Stimulate many organs. Laughter enhances your intake of oxygen-rich air, stimulates your heart, lungs and muscles, and increases the endorphins that are released by your brain.
• Activate and relieve your stress response. A rollicking laugh fires up and then cools down your stress response and increases your heart rate and blood pressure. The result? A good, relaxed feeling.
• Soothe tension. Laughter can also stimulate circulation and aid muscle relaxation, both of which help reduce some of the physical symptoms of stress.

Long-term effects

Laughter isn't just a quick pick-me-up, though. It's also good for you over the long haul. Laughter may:

• Improve your immune system. Negative thoughts manifest into chemical reactions that can affect your body by bringing more stress into your system and decreasing your immunity. In contrast, positive thoughts actually release neuropeptides that help fight stress and potentially more-serious illnesses.
• Relieve pain. Laughter may ease pain by causing the body to produce its own natural painkillers. Laughter may also break the pain-spasm cycle common to some muscle disorders.
• Increase personal satisfaction. Laughter can also make it easier to cope with difficult situations. It also helps you connect with other people.
• Improve your mood. Many people experience depression, sometimes due to chronic illnesses. Laughter can help lessen your depression and anxiety and make you feel happier.

-The Mayo Clinic 

Feeling rundown? Try laughing more. Some researchers think laughter just might be the best medicine, helping you feel better and putting that spring back in your step.

"I believe that if people can get more laughter in their lives, they are a lot better off," says Steve Wilson, MA, CSP, a psychologist and laugh therapist. "They might be healthier too."

Yet researchers aren't sure if it's actually the act of laughing that makes people feel better. A good sense of humor, a positive attitude, and the support of friends and family might play a role, too.

"The definitive research into the potential health benefits of laughter just hasn't been done yet," says Robert R. Provine, professor of psychology and neuroscience at the University of Maryland, Baltimore County and author of Laughter: A Scientific Investigation.

But while we don't know for sure that laughter helps people feel better, it certainly isn't hurting.

Laughter Therapy: What Happens When We Laugh?

We change physiologically when we laugh. We stretch muscles throughout our face and body, our pulse and blood pressure go up, and we breathe faster, sending more oxygen to our tissues.

People who believe in the benefits of laughter say it can be like a mildworkout -- and may offer some of the same advantages as a workout.

"The effects of laughter and exercise are very similar," says Wilson. "Combining laughter and movement, like waving your arms, is a great way to boost your heart rate."

One pioneer in laughter research, William Fry, claimed it took ten minutes on a rowing machine for his heart rate to reach the level it would after just one minute of hearty laughter.

And laughter appears to burn calories, too. Maciej Buchowski, a researcher from Vanderbilt University, conducted a small study in which he measured the amount of calories expended in laughing. It turned out that 10-15 minutes of laughter burned 50 calories.

While the results are intriguing, don't be too hasty in ditching that treadmill. One piece of chocolate has about 50 calories; at the rate of 50 calories per hour, losing one pound would require about 12 hours of concentrated laughter!

...........WEB MD (HAHA THIS IS THE ONLY OK TIME AND SORT OF APPROPRIATE TIME- HAHA OTHERWISE I HIGHLY ADVISE ONE NOT TO USE THIS AS A SOURCE OF HEALTH CHECK, just saying.)

CALL ME weird but I love to try and make people laugh and I have come to personally recognize how I use it whenever I'm in a nervous situation. But I also use it whenever I want. For example, I once told my first boyfriend, now ex boyfriend, from 2007 (cause this all matters, want his name? Just kidding) THAT I had a dream about him- He threw my camera off a mountain. I SAID IT! Yep, I know. But, whatever. I mean, sure- if you make it weird, it's weird. I think it's hilarious I've been laughing out loud this entire time. 

If you're asking why, it's because I think it is so random and randomness/spontaneity/ switching it up is not a bad thing-Plus, it's true. Sometimes random humour is funny to people and it certainly is to me. My old roommate was notorious for it. Oh we laughed forever and ever.

We easily bought the not so great option for university gear and ended up with bright yellow/orange/"gold" pants with a purple bird on it. And to make matters worse we'd wear them with read hoodies that were 9 sizes too large and drive to Hamilton and back just to go a quaint, candy store in Cambridge and buy BIG LEAGUE CHEW---ITS SO GOOD! We played the ghostbusters, stealing sunshines, Eminem, Ashanti, fat Joe, Tina turner, Aretha Franklin.... IN MY CAR- SO an enclosed small space just rock out to tunes. ...

So get out there and laugh!

Love, 

Dorothy xo

#laughter

(I swear this isn't staged) 

Dear Dorothy...I GOT A LETTER!

It has recently been brought to my attention that I actually have legit readers on my blog...Not that I doubted it. I know I have some friend/fan readers (you're all my friends) but I received a letter thanking me for the efforts I take in normalizing mental health, de-stigmatization and overall advocating for a cause that couldn't be any closer to my heart.

"Dear Dorothy

You inspire and motivate so many women, men, young adults, students and teenagers to tell their stories, to talk. Your message, stories, and strength has and will reach thousands of people.
People are talking! Keep going! Normalize these conversations."

AND THEN THE WRITER SO GRACIOUSLY added "Miss Universe Canada! We are cheering for you! We support you."

I'm in awe. I'm beyond flattered, humbled and honoured.

Does that surprise you? How shocked I am? Because it doesn't surprise me. I am not afraid of being known or being in the spotlight for a speech I'm about to give, or even being a teacher in a class with kids who literally idolize you so much they are begging to simply fill up your Tiger mug with water-- within seconds of me finishing it. Every. Time. However, I was not (past tense) one who was receptive to kindness or compliments, or letters that re-iterate exactly what I try to tell myself when I post vulnerable postings and sit there like "oh man, should I have said that? Was it too much?" In other words, worry, worry, worry, worry.

This letter today, however, did so much more for me than I think the writer will ever know, as I had such a D-funked morning. (I made that up D-Funked) The morning was beautiful, sun was coming out in a spectacular way- so much so I even took a photo and posted it online with the following caption:

"I wanna make a change, make this place a little better. We need to live within a world where EVERYBODY matters - I don't want to see anyone's sons or daughters crying cause they don't fit in with what society has taught them"⚡ Thank you Leah Guest for those awesome lyrics, took the words straight from my mouth. I wake up in this oasis every morning and think. Just think. What's happening in the world, what's happening around my community, if I feel any void of sorts I start writing... But most importantly has been my implementation of spirituality and allowing the universe to work while I work hard in it. What we put in we get back out? But don't push yourself, you'll end up pushing everything and everyone around you. Take care of you first.'

(Bed is messy I know, but it was a momentary thing)

If you know that song 7 years by Luke Graham then you know the other version by Leah Guest. When I first heard that tune I thought to myself "This is how I wish I could get my message out, because people would totally listen." I love to sing and I used to sing in choir, Oakville Academy for the Arts, but then I let my friends critical "jokes" into my head and I began to believe it more than anyone else that I couldn't sing for beans. SO I STOPPED! Except when I am in my car... duh. Then I'm Adele, or trying to be. 

BACK TO WHATS IMPORTANT #ADHD loves to kick in. 

I cannot express the amount of gratitude and love I have for those around me. Individuals like my friend Brittany Fisler who managed to surprise me at my Fundraiser last weekend, or this beautiful woman from Kitchener who is Editor in Chief at Corporita Magazine, Executive director at the Canadian Council for the Dissemination of Science and Culture...These types of people don't just walk into my life. I mean they do, but they do because I am working with the universe instead of against it. In other words, I have to accept what will come knowing that I am competent and capable to handle a set back, whether physical, mental or emotional. Why? because I don't just want to survive, I want to LIVE! I want to LIVE AND LOVE LIFE! I used to say people were lying when they would tell me I love my life, but we're not. It just takes a lot more self awareness and self care. 

I self talk to myself everyday now given that, contrary to last year, I'm carrying what feels like the solution/secret of how to "just be." Or never have a day pass you by where you feel like you can't centre yourself, its out of your control-- even to try and remind yourself who you are and what you're grateful for that made you into the person you are today- the tough times, the rough times, the # of times you thought  to yourself "I don't know" or "I don't know what to do.."

I found this picture because it represents a lot of what my self talk begins with...

I always begin with saying out loud "I am safe right now, as I am usually in my car, apartment, school aka workplace, or anywhere in Canada (rarely far) and I know that I AM SAFE, BECAUSE I'M GOING TO KEEP MYSELF SAFE..." Well, doesn't that sound so much easier said than done...

unless you are in danger, you should be able to calm your mind knowing you're in a place where you mentally chose knowing you were good..in that more "stable" moment if you will, so never let the fear of being some where not near play a big role..because you know what this is and you have felt this before. IT IS OKAY BECAUSE WE'VE SEEN OURSELVES GET OUT OF THIS BEFORE, SO WE'RE GOING TO DO IT AGAIN JUST A DIFFERENT SCENERY! 

Grab HOLD to your breath and re-claim it. BREATHE IN AND BREATHE OUT (saying it to yourself, and stand up straight it helps haha) 

Just remember that whatever you're feeling will pass..It might not be immediate but I promise if you try and go work out- walk- call a friend- put on a show that totally relaxes you or consumes your mind- take a bath and youtube Meditation music and force it- WE GOTTA WORK IT LADIES AND GENTS!

IT'S UP TO US. 

SO! TO MY DEAR FRIEND WHO SENT THIS LETTER, I DEDICATE THIS POST TO YOU. Thank you for reminding me how important it is for me to share these kinds of conversations, because we need to have them. We need to reach out and speak out... 

I hope to make you all proud of my Miss Universe Canada efforts, as I am just going to enjoy myself and the experience- it's once in a lifetime. 

Thank you every one so much 

SOOO MUCH

Dorothy xoxo