Can We Last Through The Winter?

Can we last through the winter?

The water's starting to freeze.

The only one who remembers

Taking the wrong step, falling in front of me.

This body's already aging.

These nights are all ready long.

And if I last through the winter,

I swear to you now, I won't call.

Congratulations, go home now.

Will we last through the winter?

Will we make it to see?

I never wanted a partner and I never loved you,

Now you are free to leave.

This heart is already frozen,

I can't remember the fall.

And if I last through the winter,

I swear to you now, I won't call.

Congratulations, go home now.

It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.

Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.

It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.

Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.

It must be buried under the heart

That makes this pace consistent.

You'll find it torn, that gate's been opened?

I've been wondering if you've been real with us.

It's too late

It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.

Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.

It's too late, it's too late, they won't let go.

Follow five footsteps through that open door, open door.

It's start, stop and go you've been dying for, you've been dying for.

Circa Survive- In Fear and Faith, from their Jurturna album. I was blessed this year. 

You see, growing up I listened to music like this and lyrics like this whether I wanted to or not. I'm glad I did, because this band, amongst a few others, played a real role in my brothers life, and mine too for that matter. 

Given the stereotypical title of "Emo," which its so far from-- psychedelic rock? Conceptual expression through the gift of music? Circa Survive, Anthony Green (singer) is a game changer. One of the few artists or bands that sought after their career in the most humbling way possible, by staying true to what they believed in and not what some record company could have corroborated. What I didn't know then, but know now is that Anthony (my hero) was a heroin addict. 

I take that back because I knew this earlier in April, remember the first time I was graced with their voices, which was also the first time  I ever went out a) sober to concert b) sober in a club c) sober in LAS VEGAS. 

NOW

I had the absolute, ABSOLUTE pleasure of seeing them live again, but also got a private acoustic concert, with Q+A AND I got to ask him a question. Yep, we talked. While I didn't get a straight answer I did ask if he had any plans on making more songs for the American Assoction for Suicide Prevention because--lets be honest, that saves lives. 

We sat in a circle and Anthony insisted we stay that way, and it was pretty freakin' cool 

That's my shoe and there's my boy- right across from me. 

I'd like to thank my brother, Ave, because he told me about this night early September and held 2 conditions: 1) I  HAVE to be available October 28th and 2) do NOT Google or research what's happening and surprisingly I didn't. Plus I follow the group on social media so I really had no idea, they never promoted coming to Toronto so night of, literally with 15 minutes to get there I was surprised with this amazing gift and broke into happy tears. 

Despite previous months circumstances, your willingness to see past the majority of that and recognize how much this meant to me and that there wasn't really anyone else you could go with--that will never be forgotten. I love you with every inch and bone in my body. I'm the luckiest damn sister in the world. And not just because you took me to this show but because you continue to inspire the shit out of me and rise above.